SCARED AND WORTHLESS
I push people away. It’s what I do. I just get so scared. I don’t know why. I’ll make you think I really like you and then I’ll feel myself falling and then I’ll just stop. I’ll stop because I’m scared to feel something. I’ll stop because I don’t want you to change your mind in the end. I’ll stop because I can’t feel vulnerable in front of anybody. I push people away. I don’t want them to see me, the real me. In the end, all I want is for someone to keep coming back. I want someone to not give up. I know I won’t ever get that though. I’m to good at scaring people away and making them feel worthless…just like me.
